Change of Plans

I got off the plane in Bangkok on the way to Seoul. The spasms in my back were almost bringing tears to my eyes. I arrived at 5:50 am and decided to hunker down and try and sort this out before going to Beijing on Sunday for a biz dinner. I feel like such a slacker...............
The problem is, I had three abortive attempts to go out today. All I wanted was to go and eat. In the elevator I'm almost doubled over.....up to the room and ...puke,..and lie on the floor in the toilet staring at the cistern. Jesus, it makes you wonder whats REALLY wrong, you know? Do I have cancer of the spine or something????
The thing is, I've been down this road before. Its hell while its happening, but fades away once all seems right with the world. I'm told that's much like childbirth.
Yikes!
I AM a serious pussy. It's really crap being alone on the road when you're suffering. You feel...OH SO ALONE, and sorry for yourself.
It feels crap though and I'm suffering.
Hope its all good wherever you are.
T